Is Their a Heaven?

9/23/09

Coin Operated Boy

coin-operated boysitting on the shelf he is just a toy but i turn him on and he comes to life automatic joy that is why i want a coin-operated of plastic and elastic he is rugged and long-lasting who could ever ever ask for more love without complications galore Many Shapes and Weights to Choose From I will Never Leave My Bedroom I will never cry at night Again Wrap My Arms Around Him And Pretend coin-operated boy all the other real ones that i destroyed cannot hold a candle to my new boy and i'll never let him go and i'll never be alone(go)and i'll never let him go and i'll never be alone(go) and i'll never be alone (go) and i'll never be alone not with my coin-operated boy this bridge was written to make you feel smittener with my sad picture of girl getting bitterer can you extract me from my plastic fantasy i didn't think so but i'm still convencinble will you persist even after i bet you a billion dollars that i'll never love you?and will you persist even after i kiss you goodbye for the last time will you keep on trying? to prove it i'm dying to lose it i'm losing my confidence i want it i want it i want it i want it i want you i want you i want you i want you i want you i want a i want a i want a i want a i want a coin operated boy if i had a star to wish on for my life i can't imagine any flesh and blood could be his match i can even take him in the bath coin operated boy he may not be real experienced with girls but i know he feels like a boy should feel isn't that the point? that is why i want a coin-operated boy with a pretty coin-operated voice saying that he loves me that he's thinking of me straight and to the point that is why i want a coin-operated boy.

9/20/09

She's Gone

She's Gone
so stop looking for her
I killed her
so she can't come back
I tied her up
and threw her away
she'll never come back
this is what you get
so take it or leave it
i know you want her
but i haven't seen her in a long time
she left and i cheered
not because i hated her
but because i never wanted to see her hurt
It kills me when shes in pain
she's been hurt too many times
by people that was susposed to never hurt her again
maybe if you prove to me
that if she's hurting your dying
i'll let her come back
and this illusion you see
will be gone
and the only thing that remains
is the real me

Why? a poem about suicide


He says that he will

If she does

He told me last night

That he will

Does she even know

This could kill him

She makes the wron decision

and it not just wasting her life

it's completely destroying another's

He swore He wouldn't hurt himself

but I can tell

if she does

it would be the end

of not only a friendship

but of a life

and i ask myself

if he kills himself over her

what will happen next

and if he kills himself

because of her

is it really suicide?

if he i hope he leaves a letter to tell me

WHY??

9/7/09

I Wish I Could Get Him To Stop

At Least That's What He Tells Me

Hey tonight was weird it all started with a call to my friend and then a walk to a park . I played tic tac toe on his stomach and then wrote my name right on his waistline. then we drew all over his face and body...did you know that i can bring a guy to his knees by tickling him......dreaming about you and me well i guess I'm going to bed............................................too bad your not in it tonight cause that would be a dream come true so if you ever want to join me come on in i would love to wake up next to you and i wish he stop thinking of hurting himself hes my friend and i don't think i can handle it if he dies so please pray for lonely _girl's friend he needs the good vibe heading his way and send some my way as well I'll need all the help i can get to try to keep him from hurting himself...I just hope he remembers that he swore on his mother's grave not to cut again I love this guy so much i think of him as my best guy friend so please send love our way and pray for all those people who cant find a way to deal with their pain




I Need Your Help Okay God I Just Need It


Lonely_Girl